Doors

I grew up pretending sticks were little guns

I would point 'em at my dad and he'd get mad

'Cause God forbid I hurt someone

I'd hurt anyone I could

Anyone who got too close and anyone who wouldn't look

I was born into a one-hundred-year storm

Foot of ice across Vermont, and in that dark

And in that frost a heart was formed

Malcontented and unwarm

You were unsuspecting, not unwarned

That I'm the trouble ahead

That I scream in my sleep

You're putting money on red, I'm a sure bet at a losing streak

I keep showing you doors, but you can't open them up

'Cause it gets harder to see me the closer you try to look

I just live here, babe, but you're the one who decided to knock

And you knocked

Have you ever stared directly at the sun?

Have you ever shared some closeness

So exposed, to have it spit back by someone?

So forgive me if I jump

At the rattle of your keys, "Oh, are you leaving?"

"No, babe, I'm just waking up"

And now what?

I'm left staring at the ceiling

Listing reasons you should pack all your shit up

That I'm the trouble ahead

And I scream in my sleep

You're putting money on red, I'm a sure bet at a losing streak

I keep showing you doors, but you can't open them up

'Cause it gets harder to see me the closer you try to look

I just live here, babe, but you're the one who decided to knock

You knocked

I'll be gone so long before the anger comes

I'll be only what you've known of me 'til now

Oh, how I hope you're moving on

'Cause I'm the trouble ahead

And I scream in my sleep

You're putting money on red, I'm a sure bet at a losing streak

I keep showing you doors, but you can't open them up

'Cause it gets harder to see me the closer you try to look

I just live here, babe, but you're the one

I just live here, babe, but you're the one

I just live here, babe, but you're the one